The first note of true love

Lord, Your cross is where,

I heard the first note of true love.

At the cross of Calvary,

where you bore my sin and grieve

and purchased me: the slave of sin.

The lamb of God, slain for my sin

Became a sin offering to pour His life-

abundantly onto me.

Oh!This love overflows my heart

or I never can contain the depth:

Where you the Son of God,

In all your Majesty

ever thought to save me,

just a bit of dust on the face of earth…

In all your love and power-

you found me precious and redeemable

and brought your magnificent plans

come together in my life

and gave me this precious gift of salvation,

altogether free.

 

I was so much in need of you – Lord,

bonded, rejected,withdrawn…

crushed in my pew of darkness

far from your grace and mercy

I am glad you saw me there ,

in the darkest hour of my life

with your eyes full of compassion.

and held me so close to your heart,

engraved me on the palm of your hands;

like no one ever had,JESUS…

 

Your love have set me free:

When your note of love reached my ears,

they got open

the living water rushed to my soul.

As I saw your crucified image

my vision changed for ever.

I can perceive your love

now all through this nature.

Your love clothed me in honor and

your words added wisdom.

 

If ever I declined  in my love for you

restitute my soul

to the first note of your love.

 

In Christ Jesus,

Smitha Thomas.

A song from the valley…

A valley dark and deep ,

never seen before.

I lift my hands to you,

I cant be alone .

Journey …through this narrow lane is of pain,

full of mystery.

When I am in this valley

I seek for you, more and more

more and more…

This valley makes me dry

takes my whole courage,

It is of deep agony…

No one likes in there

not prepared to pause,

IMPOSSIBLE to turn around.

Don’t know the depth of it

and can’t come out alone…

OH FATHER…. I CLING TO YOU.

take me to the shore.

Please do not leave me alone.

He answered me in His Majesty

“HERE I AM so close to you;

I shall be your guide-

your soul shall not dismay.

My light shall rise for you in obscurity

and my bread will satisfy  your souls drought.”

Diligently I sought him for an answer;

“ when will my night  turn into noon?

and it echoed in my soul

“ it will be way quick .”

Just as I was reminded of His grace

enormous before me to handle,

I confronted to him my last piece of puzzle

Where am I in this valley?

I am unaware of my position;

Did I just enter or am I nearing the exit?

I am unable to see the depth:

nor could I see the end of my way.

His consoling words ringed in my ears,

“Do you really need to worry about that-

when its my strength that prevails you

till the very end of this journey?

Nothing can endanger you,

when you are nestled by my spirit.

And he assured me one thing

I won’t be put  back in my old habitat

when I come out victorious -

from that dreadful valley,

but will be like a well-watered garden,

like a spring whose waters never fail…

 

In Christ Jesus,

Smitha Thomas.

Hiding under His wings

Better than any friend

so close to my heart;

you touched my life Jesus.

When my silent whispers are unheard to man

I know you hear my thoughts and dreams.

I am grateful Father God for the peace you granted me,

and your consoling words lifts my spirit each day.

As I try to spread my  wings and fly high

I admit my inexperience, my lack of wisdom,

and you just have taken care of them all.

You are the wonderful God who just takes me as I am,

when I am still a lump of clay-

unable to hold the purpose you have for me,

you are so passionate to model me again

till I reach pliable to be the vessel ,

in perfect accord to your desire.

My provider, friend, shepherd and strength,

I call upon you, when I lose all my strength

your whispers of love, deep in my heart

helps me run my race, each day with victory.

Like the sparrow that found a house,

and the swallow a nest to lay the young one

I found a resting place in you,

Help me hide each day under the cover of your wings.

In Christ Jesus

Smitha Thomas

Insecurity

Am i insecure i asked myself?

‘no’ was the abrupt answer from my mind.

I pondered  deep, till i found -

a precise answer which conceded  “yes”.  

Many times I speculated my vulnerabilities

but, was not ready to admit my fears.

Insecurity  attacked me abruptly

fear grew with no reason.

My soul groaned within me with despair

for a real reason or pursuit for my life?

I felt my base is shaken ,

and don’t have a place to lean on.

My mind  fluttered away from me

with  unforgiving thoughts of  past ,

and questions about my future;

till I found comfort in your word.

Your word is a cool breeze that lightens the air..

It eased my rage, my fear, my pain.

You know the very thing,

What this mere man is made of?

a heart with no strength;

and   numbered days.

As i opened the book

it talked to me” fear not”

If you dwell in my shelter

in the shadow of the Almighty

“I will cover you with my feathers,

and under my wings you will find refuge;

My faithfulness will be your shield and rampart”

Like a child in the arms of his mother

I was nestled and comforted by your word.

You have engraved me upon your hands

I am safe and secure there.

I thank you God today ,

for the understanding you granted.

Here I submit myself 

with this giant leap of faith,

I expose in your presence all my pain ,

fear and haunting thoughts.

I am ready to leave them behind.

Pour the healing oil of our your spirit

in all my pain and hurt.

Father mend  the broken parts of this unworthy vessel

to pursue the fullness of my life.

.

I know only you can do this Father…

In Christ Jesus

Smitha Thomas.

   If you are seeking deliverance from insecurity in your life..Meditate the following verses from Psalm 34.

⁴ I sought the LORD, and he answered me;
       he delivered me from all my fears.

⁵ Those who look to him are radiant;
       their faces are never covered with shame.

⁶ This poor man called, and the LORD heard him;
       he saved him out of all his troubles.

⁷ The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him,
       and he delivers them.

⁸ Taste and see that the LORD is good;
       blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

⁹ Fear the LORD, you his saints,
       for those who fear him lack nothing.

¹⁰ The lions may grow weak and hungry,
       but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.

May God bless you.

rain of holy spirit…

 

I desire for a rain,an abundant rain

of your holy spirit.

I  call upon you, Abba Father;

when the trials of this desert ,

weakens the strength of my heart.

I am in need of a new anointing,  Father

my mind is hardened with  burdens

its heavy for me to carry any longer.

I hope for  a rain in my soul,

that can break my emotions

and set me free from my burdens.

This rain can melt-

the hardness of my heart,

it can bring me sensitiveness

towards love , pain and agony.

This rain helps me overcome my ego

and set forth my path straight

as it helps me focus on your will for me.

This rain of your spirit

makes me forget about my self,

and teach me to be humble

so as to surrender to your will.

When the world offers me its finest

I am in need of your rain ,Father

or else i may wander away from you.

The heat of the world kills

the peace and love of my heart.

This rain of your  holy spirit

renews my existence in you.

Helps me remember each day,

the fruits i need to bear;

love, joy, peace, longsuffering,

gentleness, goodness and faith.

This rain can quench

the dryness of my spirit

and adds  strength to my prayer.

Give me your rain from heaven,

to add new fruitful seasons

so as to fill my heart with gladness.

In Christ Jesus

Smitha Thomas.

Travel through memory lane…

 

Tears filled my eyes,

as I  walked down my memory lane .

As my past  unraveled -

I met my lost desperate soul,

waiting for deliverance;

with endless questions in  mind.

Upholding the promises of God-

so close to my heart ,

with a  prayer  each day;

“Savior hold my hand-

I cant walk alone”.

 You are my compassionate friend,

my soul’s comforter,

eternal peace provider,

my stream of hope,

strength and refuge.

You spoke to me when I  was sad ,

wiped away my tears.

You promised me;

“I will never leave you alone

I am your shepherd ”.

The peace I found in you

is eternal and overflowing.

You answered my prayers;

resolved all my  queries,

and the days of my agony passed

in the blink of time.

I saw all your promises

unwinding in front of my eyes.

 Open my heart each day-

to see your marvelous works in my life.

Praise and honor to you Father-

as another year filled with your promise ,

dawns in front of us.

Help me to love you each day ,

as you saved me yesterday.

Revive my spirit each day,

so there is new song in my heart !

In Christ Jesus,

Smitha Thomas